In my life I had a lot of early childhood traumas which made me have a lot of problems in my life with decision making, I was doubtful of myself, I was neurotic, I was fearful, I lacked confidence and I didn’t feel comfortable in my own skin.
During my Dianetics counseling things started to become clear. I see objects as solid whereas before they were fluid. Things seem more real to me. I’m more present than I have ever been before. For the first time in my life I can feel again!
After my first session I walked outside and I literally felt the sun for the first time in my life. Before, the sun was an experience that was burning me or wasn’t keeping me warm enough. I used to be cold all the time and now I’m not anymore, I don’t have to wear thick jerseys every day. My temperature has come back.
Before Dianetics I would look at the world and the happenings and imagine feelings or emotions people would go through. I couldn’t feel what other people felt. I had to imagine what it would be like. But after Dianetics I can feel again, I can laugh. I’m human again!
I no longer feel I have the obligation to walk around with a mask. With traumatized people you sort of have to pretend that everything is okay and build a fake persona. Now that has all fallen off. I’m more myself than I have ever been before. I’m accepting of my experiences there is no obligation to pretend otherwise.
N. F. – Johannesburg